When yr heart is sinking and things stare back at u, what do u do?

Hold on.

Am this close

Am this close to snapping. This close. But am holding on coz its all worth it. Or is it?

When ...

When the teacher is cute, extremely cute and u r supposed to sit right in the front (thanks to the seating plan) u know theres trouble concentrating :)

There are days when pain settles in me

There are days when pain settles in me
In the very depth of my soul
And once it settles,
I see the world as it is
It’s beauty unfolds
Making the pain less significant
Little joys explode in my heart
Like little buds opening up to the floral world,
Only to fade away in a darkness untold.

In darkness,
The flowers resort to their eternal rest
In darkness,
I seek eternal bliss
The stars shine their soothing, fascinating glow,
And Lo!
One of them is you!

 Naureen.

Love

When you love someone, it's something. When someone loves you, it's another thing. When you love the person who loves you back, it's everything.

"If You are deeply loved by some one it will provide you strength and if you love some one deeply it will provide you courage."

Love is not about getting and giving , its about holding and feeling.

Love is not in your heart to stay,and Love is not Love till you give it away.

He who wants to do good, knocks at the gate; he who loves finds the gates open.

It's so easy to die for love,the real challenge is to live for it

Love is like standing in the wet cement.The longer you stay, the harder it is to leave.And you can never go without leaving your shoes behind.

If you love some thing...set it free.. if it come backs to you then its yours and only yours and if it doesn;t come back to you then it was never ment to me..

Hmm Its been a long time since i posted an update. LUMS is good ALHAMDULILAH. Am a sophomore now :) Ramazan seemed like fun in the freshman year here. so am looking forward to it. Like hostel life. Its a whole new experience. Gives u yr own space.

Am still thinking abt switching to boiled food for a while. Dun like the extra weight on me anymore. I mean i lose weight then i get lazy and chubby :) LOL. maybe a regular walk!! ANd man i love chocolates!! hehe but i CAN give them up for a while. Have interesting courses.

it was Saqib's b day on the 18th. My dad's bday on the 13th. I got a cake sent to my dad he was soo happy :) Me and other friends of Saqib gave him a surprise b day thing. I still remember that cake all over his face LOL!

As for my bday. it was on the 4th. :) it went goood. Got so many gifts yeha i am gift crazy!!!! My bday was fun !! I got this cute stuffed monkey that i can hang lol! and cute jewelry and awesome earings. Owe a few friends a treat. Ho well :)

have a class at 7:15, before that wana have tea, study and then go for a walk!! :)

hmm lets hope i carry on this blog posting :)

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

An Update

Life is good, ALHAMDULILAH :) Am bac in karachi. Its been a yr since i got into lums! ALHAMDULILAH !

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"Poets are of two kinds: an intellectual with an acquired personality and an inspired one who was a self before his human training began. But the difference between intelligence and inspiration in poetry is like the difference between sharp fingernails that mangle the skin and ethereal lips that kiss and heal the body's sores."
Khalil Gibran

If God hasn't

If God hasn't given up on you, you have no right to give up on yourself.

Love,
Naureen

Yeah things could be worse but this asthmas been hurting! Man I wish I could sleep peacefully in my room. But no, people wont grant me that solace. Certain assholes wont! :P

Whats Going On?

I dont know exactly whats going on. Maybe its a transition towards a better self. Thats the silver lining. But I feel so hurt its not even funny! I feel used. People can be so mean! I mean there can be people for whom u go out of yr way, at times they do the same but in the end, they come out as self centered as they really are. Beautiful snakes they are. They make u rely on their beauty, U think its a sign of their innocence but in the end.. in the end, they bite and they bite bad.

Sure things could have been worse but i feel

I dunno

I dunno so many things anymore. I dont even feel like talking to people. I feel hurt and betrayed. No matter who u r, people simply wont skip hurting u. They would exploit u more once they realize u r of the 'nicer' type. So nice to me, so mean! I mean, once u need something from me, u r so sweet! Once its all done i dont even exist for u. How mean can people be? If u dunt like me, DONT TALK TO ME. THATS MUCH BETTER THAN COMIN CLOSE TO ME, HURTING ME, TREATING ME AS IF I DUNT EXIST! and then USING ME AND MY THINGS AGAIN. I MEAN C'MON ITNA GIRA HUA? HOW CAN SOMEONE BE THAT LOW??

SUre i have had my good times but i had no idea i would hafta pay for them like that. Mean, indifferent, evil :p people!

What u r

"Man's main task in life is to give birth to himself, to become what he potentially is. The most important product of his effort is his own personality."

-Erich Fromm, Man for Himself

Love...

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity.For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

The Moon and me

Life is better... a bit hard though. But I wont give up. Not now, i wont. I shall not surrender after coming so far... I will not die of thirst at the sight of the oasis. I simply will not.


Naureen.

You Belong in New York City

You're an energetic, ambitious woman. And only NYC is fast enough for you. Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career Or simply take in all the city has to offer.

What City Do You Belong In?

Heart

Follow your heart - its the hardest thing in the world to do :)
Love,
Naureen

But it si the most soothing..

Love

U can never overlook the power friends have over yr life. They shower u with love and passion and love u all the same. The way u are. They help u mould. It is so wonderful!

I just witnessed the soul of it all. It was a friend's b day today. Her friends(those who have known her for long) had this celebration for her and all. They were so funny, so lively. It like feeling life, not just the meaning of life.

Man, what would humans do without love? Nothing.

SPIRIT!

which chinese symbol are you?
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Had you loved me the way I loved you

If you only knew how much I loved you,
You wouldnt be doing all this,
Had you realized what you meant to me,
You wouldn't have done all this.
Had you not stopped caring,
You probably would not do this.
Had you loved me back the way I loved you,
You wouldn't be doing this.
Had you seen yourself in me,
You wouldn't have hurt me.

Hmm! Theres something about mornings that I love.. the serenity and love that pours out of the sky at this time is divine :) Man its soo romantic! If i opt for a date, i'd go for an early morning walk! or maybe around flowers, sitting, talking, laughing AWWW thats so cute thats the greatest b day gift i cud have... mornings and flowers! I would LOVE to have my friends do that on my bday! I just lovveeeeee mornings!
HAd aaloo ka paratha yesterday, for the second time after coming to LUMS! YUMSS!!! i like the nashta here!
Trying to study, DID study ALHAMDULILAH! Gota study mice now... just studied human behaviour while sitting outside the academic block :)
SO cool! I love these dayss!

Life has gotten so hollow suddenly. The things that matter, the things i live for. Its gotten so lonely, i am paralysed. I will leave home tommorow INSHALLAH. See , i wanna go, i dun wana stay but i miss this cozy home so much. I feel a hollowness within me...

I even hafta work. Mids hain next week. I wonder where life will take me. This lonliness is so like me yet so unwanted... why am i not changing it? How do i change it?

Options:-
Get a boyfriend...
Contact a close friend.. talk to him at this hour... be as mysterious as u feel, just be frank...
scream, shout and cry...
stay home(I wud never do that!)
Write abt it..(thats what I am doing :D)

I am gona miss home... but its ok. Sometimes i feel i just dunt connect. I am hurting within. I know, I need to have a heart to heart with someone... but i dunno how i feel!
I gota learn to deal with this stuff... i will be leaving and coming a lot INSHALLAH... so i better get used to it.

P.s. : u have hurt me. U have so hurt me. How u gona live with it? How u gona bear it? U still mean a lot to me u know and i still trust u!

If at times you want to cry,And life seems such a trial,Above the clouds, there's a bright blue sky,So make your tears a smile.As you travel on life's way,With its many ups and downs,Remember, it's quite true to say,One smile is worth a dozen frowns.Among the world's expensive things,A smile is very cheap,And when you give a smile away,You get one back to keep.Happiness comes at times to all,But sadness comes unbidden,And sometimes a few tears must fall,Among the laughter hidden.So when friends have sadness on their faces,And troubles round them piled,The world will seem a better place,And all because you smiled!~Unknown artist

I wanna groannnnnnnnnn!

I have a cold. I ahve been feeling distant and snappy wid everybody lately... even before the cold started... had some asthma trouble today, ALHAMDULILAH its fine now.. but i so wana groan......................... I hate my life I JUST HATEEEEEEEEEEE IT!!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

o man, its times such as these where u gota show patience... man ... fuck it up!

Happy new year!!! :D
4:41 am and am up!! studying and tafree too!
Hm updates?? man i feel so hungry in wintersss!