Death and Love

There was this lady.. must be 40 something.. she lived in the same apartments as me. She died. I just found out. I dunno when but recently she passed away, mom didnt tell me coz i was already sick.I feel so overwhelmed, shes gone. We used to attend prayers together. Morning prayers together.. I never felt safe going alone, she always took me with her. Those were restless nights for me. Had stuff on my mind. I was basically haunted. Haunted. Those prayers were my solace. I still remember those haunted nights. SHe was so proud of me. LUMS and all ALHAMDULILAH. She was divorced, had no kids. Used to live with her mom. Her mother's still alive...

The last time she met me, she asked me to pray for her mother( her mom was sick). She was like, "You are a daughter, God will listen to you. Please pray for my mom that God restores her health." she said something like that. I did. And her mom's ok, i guess.

It must be so hard for her. Losing a daughter like that. That lady died of a heart attack. She always asked me to visit her home. She was soo active MASHALLAH. She was a teacher and was into social work too.

May God grant her peace and love. AAMEEN

I love you and will miss you always. No matter what now, u have filled these places in my life with love. and i love u for it.

This is for everyone who, at one point in time has meant something to me and has filled me with love. I love you.

Love,
Naureen

hmm....

Do u feel offended when I say life is 'fucked up'?!

:D

yeah staying out in the cold.. after posting yr blogs, sitting out in the cold and crying aint the wisest thing to do... i did have someone by my side(my friend saw me and stayed with for long and talked to me and comforted me... sardiii lag gayeee been soo sick! and now my abs hurt:D ouch!!

Ah friends make life easier but no crying or eating ice cream in a collddd seasoon!

the pain...

WHy? why do people hurt ya> why do people not care when u care bac?why am i so dissatisfied why does it hurt so much? A part of mewants to sit and cry another part of me wants to go bac to my friends roomand cry my eyes out. People hurt ya dun they, they dun really care.Why do i care so much?why, why, why?it feels pointless, its causing me so much pain.\I feel numb with pain and worry. I gota work thisits been years... ive been disappointed since childhood thru thingslike these, pain, ignorance, carelessness. WHy cant ppl for once understand how sensitive i am and take care of it?\how much shud i adjust>


i just wana go n cry but it wont get me anywhere,... its nor worth itttttttttttGodd... what do u do when it hurts, it hurts so bad... ppl u love so much hurt uthey really really do...
ugh