I have been tagged!

Reza tagged me!!! I am supposed to tell u 5 weird things about myself!!

Number 1. : I talk to myself. When i am really excited or when i am really really hurting, i try to express my joy/sorrow to myself - alone, imagining how a person who cares about me would react. Someone who loves me.

Number 2 : I am scared of falling in love. Love can hurt - a lot.

Number 3: When i get attached, i really get attached. Everything (good) is a divine blessing in a friendship to me ( although i get attached to very few people).

Number 4: When i love someone, i really care for them. i cant help it. even if they blow me off, i choose not to hate them because i can love people unconditionally (to a certain extent)

Number 5: I wana end world poverty, misery and be a solace for humanity.

I tag.. Absar, Extinct and the one whos reading this post!!

When yr heart is sinking and things stare back at u, what do u do?

Hold on.

Am this close

Am this close to snapping. This close. But am holding on coz its all worth it. Or is it?

When ...

When the teacher is cute, extremely cute and u r supposed to sit right in the front (thanks to the seating plan) u know theres trouble concentrating :)

There are days when pain settles in me

There are days when pain settles in me
In the very depth of my soul
And once it settles,
I see the world as it is
It’s beauty unfolds
Making the pain less significant
Little joys explode in my heart
Like little buds opening up to the floral world,
Only to fade away in a darkness untold.

In darkness,
The flowers resort to their eternal rest
In darkness,
I seek eternal bliss
The stars shine their soothing, fascinating glow,
And Lo!
One of them is you!

 Naureen.

Love

When you love someone, it's something. When someone loves you, it's another thing. When you love the person who loves you back, it's everything.

"If You are deeply loved by some one it will provide you strength and if you love some one deeply it will provide you courage."

Love is not about getting and giving , its about holding and feeling.

Love is not in your heart to stay,and Love is not Love till you give it away.

He who wants to do good, knocks at the gate; he who loves finds the gates open.

It's so easy to die for love,the real challenge is to live for it

Love is like standing in the wet cement.The longer you stay, the harder it is to leave.And you can never go without leaving your shoes behind.

If you love some thing...set it free.. if it come backs to you then its yours and only yours and if it doesn;t come back to you then it was never ment to me..

Hmm Its been a long time since i posted an update. LUMS is good ALHAMDULILAH. Am a sophomore now :) Ramazan seemed like fun in the freshman year here. so am looking forward to it. Like hostel life. Its a whole new experience. Gives u yr own space.

Am still thinking abt switching to boiled food for a while. Dun like the extra weight on me anymore. I mean i lose weight then i get lazy and chubby :) LOL. maybe a regular walk!! ANd man i love chocolates!! hehe but i CAN give them up for a while. Have interesting courses.

it was Saqib's b day on the 18th. My dad's bday on the 13th. I got a cake sent to my dad he was soo happy :) Me and other friends of Saqib gave him a surprise b day thing. I still remember that cake all over his face LOL!

As for my bday. it was on the 4th. :) it went goood. Got so many gifts yeha i am gift crazy!!!! My bday was fun !! I got this cute stuffed monkey that i can hang lol! and cute jewelry and awesome earings. Owe a few friends a treat. Ho well :)

have a class at 7:15, before that wana have tea, study and then go for a walk!! :)

hmm lets hope i carry on this blog posting :)

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

No Ordinary Pain

I just heard and saw a 9 year old boy scream.. he was lebenese. He was screaming in pain. Doctors say he will survive. I even saw his mom crying. Its so unfair, people suffering. Kids suffering like that. Theres a purpose to everything but man the people who do it must eb so inhumane. There needs to be more humanity in this world.

I am changing paths mentally .. for my career. I was so set on the corporate w0rld before but i cant do that while people are dying, suffering. Sure u can always donate money but i wanna do something. Help make the world a better place. I think i am gonna choose a career that would help me help people.. i wana reach out to them....

right now, i am reaching out to myself, helping myself decide and determine what i really wanna do. I wana lessen the suffering in the world.

May Allah help me do so, AAMEEN

An Update

Life is good, ALHAMDULILAH :) Am bac in karachi. Its been a yr since i got into lums! ALHAMDULILAH !

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"Poets are of two kinds: an intellectual with an acquired personality and an inspired one who was a self before his human training began. But the difference between intelligence and inspiration in poetry is like the difference between sharp fingernails that mangle the skin and ethereal lips that kiss and heal the body's sores."
Khalil Gibran

If God hasn't

If God hasn't given up on you, you have no right to give up on yourself.

Love,
Naureen

Yeah things could be worse but this asthmas been hurting! Man I wish I could sleep peacefully in my room. But no, people wont grant me that solace. Certain assholes wont! :P

Whats Going On?

I dont know exactly whats going on. Maybe its a transition towards a better self. Thats the silver lining. But I feel so hurt its not even funny! I feel used. People can be so mean! I mean there can be people for whom u go out of yr way, at times they do the same but in the end, they come out as self centered as they really are. Beautiful snakes they are. They make u rely on their beauty, U think its a sign of their innocence but in the end.. in the end, they bite and they bite bad.

Sure things could have been worse but i feel

I dunno

I dunno so many things anymore. I dont even feel like talking to people. I feel hurt and betrayed. No matter who u r, people simply wont skip hurting u. They would exploit u more once they realize u r of the 'nicer' type. So nice to me, so mean! I mean, once u need something from me, u r so sweet! Once its all done i dont even exist for u. How mean can people be? If u dunt like me, DONT TALK TO ME. THATS MUCH BETTER THAN COMIN CLOSE TO ME, HURTING ME, TREATING ME AS IF I DUNT EXIST! and then USING ME AND MY THINGS AGAIN. I MEAN C'MON ITNA GIRA HUA? HOW CAN SOMEONE BE THAT LOW??

SUre i have had my good times but i had no idea i would hafta pay for them like that. Mean, indifferent, evil :p people!

What u r

"Man's main task in life is to give birth to himself, to become what he potentially is. The most important product of his effort is his own personality."

-Erich Fromm, Man for Himself