An Update

Just tried to shift the computer table... I hate sitting on the bed instead of the chairrr!! Yeah space nahi thii!! Hmm I played badminton today. The cock got stuck in the tree so decided to use scotch tape in its place. It bounced well but cudnt focus. It moves too fast. Aim nahi lagta sahi. Practise needed. I even got a rubber ball to play wid. Inspite of these pecularities, we enjoyed it. Man I love mornings :)

An update

I dun really like it here. My computer moved!! into my bros room. This room IS cooler but still.. the last room had more privacy!!! yeah i cud tap away all night. Khair, all's well. I got bored outa net anyways. But still these updates are lovely. Everytime I do something or feel something... I think abt how I wud mention it in ma blog!!
:)
I need to c a dentistt! cavities. gota get Sophie's World. Need ot read it. Want my own copy!!

Hie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILAH i got admission in LUMS :) I am so happy I feel speechless and crazy all at the same time!!

Friends are the best!

ALHAMDULILAH , thank God ....Friends are the best!! They just are:)
"Friendship is a golden chain
If u break it,
U will always be in pain."

Hmm

I am good! wassup with u??

Funny Thing!

I watered the money plant around 6 :30 am! And then... the newspaper guy left the newspapers nearby!!! Soaked news! :) Yeah. I worked on spreading them out under the fan to dry them!! finally dried almost! But still look funny! Wonder what dad's gona say!!
Memorable Morning! =0)

Perspective

Hmm. Let's get my problems in perspective.

The IBA test. Its been bugging me. I am eager for LUMS result but I gotta be logical. Yeah THE test. To be very honest, I dun really wanna do BBA. Then why the rush? Glory huh? Also not having many other choices but honestly, BBA aint MY passion. It might be someone else's its not minee! I wanna do Bachelors in Econ!! That I gota focus on? Yes I will prepare for IBA's test... but I am NOT freaking out. I wont change my passion for glory, I just wont!

I Wanna Live

I command..
I command the forces of nature
To rip the stiches off my soul
And fill me with themselves
Teach me, caress me
Make me stronger
So far I wanna go
Where no one has ever reached
My sky has no end
Let my flight be limitlessly strong

I wanna...
I wanna live
I wanna feel myself
I wanna feel Life itself
Enough of looking back
Help me bounce higher
I wanna go so high
Above the sky
Where my sorrows are not strong enough to fly with me
I wanna reach that place
I wanna feel it
I wanna live, God,
I wana live.

More

1. It hurts me to hurt my loved ones even when they are wrong.
2. When I hate, I really really hate. Same goes for love.
3. I like reading.
4. I have spent a lot of my days lying down, staring at the ceiling, imagining I was in a different place.
5. I am a writer.
6. Survival means something to me, so does pain.
7. I like being happy.
8. I like working and thinking.
9. I dont really like beaches. I think they are gloomy.
10. I love the colour baby blue.
11. I like yellow clothes. I think yellow makes me look pretty.=o)
12. I imagine giving good things to my friends on their birthdays and any other time. Whatever I feel wud make them happy.
13. I can get scared easily.
14. I dont really like men.
15. I think the knowledge of Him is a gift God has granted us with.
16. I think tasbihs are soothing. They are sooo soothing.
17. I like being told that I am special.
18. I dont believe things easily sometimes. I can be REALLY stubborn.
19. I love gifts.
20. I like ice cream.
21. I like making people laugh(not on me!!).
22. I like Friends the tv show.
23. I wanna learn to drive.
24. I think polar bears must be really fluffy to touch but I dun wanna find out. (They are wild!)
25. I like fish - eating ke liye.
26. INSHALLAH WHen I get a goldfish, I am gona name him Bozo:)
27. I dun like being aimless. I like being focused.
28. I have learnt that your greatest duty is to yr ownself. Your well-being is somehow yr responsibility.

Weird Things About Me

1. Sometimes when I have been really angry, I have cried.
2. I hate defeat.
3. I dont like weakness
4. I love sunrise.
5. When I get depressed, I eat.
6. I have an overeating problem.
7. I like universities.
8. I like smiles too.
9. My friends mean the world to me. My family does too.
10. If someone I care for hurts me real bad, I get numb.
11. I dont like being used.
12. I havent smoked ever.
13. I think babies are the cutest thing.
14. I think a baby's laugh is the most beautiful sound in the world.
15. I like poetry and philosophy.
16. I love quotes.
17. I adore my friends and wanna be there for them whenever I can.
18. If my friends get hurt, at times I feel their pain too.
19. I tried to kill myself once... decided to slash my wrists. Couldn't. I ended up putting cuts on both of my hands and no one even noticed. I also slashed pages of my personal diary that time and those cuts are still there.
20. As far as I can recall, I have tried to kill myself twice overall .
21. I have had near death experiences.
22. I like orange juice.
23. I like winning.
24. I like romance novels too.
25. I think marriages may be made in Heaven but they go through hell.
26. I like kittens.
27. I like dolphins.
28. I think donkeys are cute to look at.
29. I like the way penguins walk.

Quote

"Open the windows of your heart and life to another. Make it a goal to do an unselfish deed today, and trust God to reward you in return."

Happiness

I have learnt that if u struggle to be happy, someway, somehow u r bestowed with doses of it - high doses of it. :)

Thank You God!!

I came across this yesterday. I wrote this two and a half years back....

"This journey isn't going to be an easy one for the road is long and filled with awful memories but all I am there to do is re-strengthen the steel of my beliefs, shaped by immense heat of difficulties. As I go along my present journey, I shall encounter things that remind me of my past... but it's for the better.".

"Stronger than yesterday
I wanna lead the right way
Chasing all my fears away
Hearing everyone say
I am stronger everyday."

Wow. The power of writing. I could almost feel my strength being renewed. Rejuvenated. Writing is Divine. So is feeling.

Why does my hand hurt? WHy do I feel this sudden urge to feel love? No, not lustful love I mean pure love. I just re-read the past emails I received. I needed to be told I am precious and that I matter. Whats wrong? Why do I feel kinda cut off? WHy do I want my friends to adore me? Am I not loved enugh? Kya hogaya hai mujhe?? I was watching "FInding Neverland." and i had to write this. Suddenly. I paused the movie! Yeah theres something wrong. Whats wrong? Maybe its coz I dun have enugh things to do. Maybe I have had a joy death? Or maybe a leave for that matter! No I dun think so. That cant be. God would never let me down like that! I am sleepyI am just gonna go rest!

...

Dont dream; its over.

Hey

I went to ma high school the other day. Met a few of ma teachers was fun!! and why dunt I feel like blogging:S I dunno!

Listen for love

Below are words that I adore. They soothe and comfort me.
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There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words 'I Love You'.So we try to communicate the idea in other words. We say take care or don’t drive too fast or be good.
But really, these are just other ways of saying I love you. You are important to me. We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don’t say. And yet because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and the meaning never gets communicated at all so the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.
Therefore, we have to listen for love in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says 'I love you'even though the words might be saying very different.
The problem is listening for love is that we don’t always understand the language of love which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language.
We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realise.
Listen for love and you will find that the world is a very loving place!