Beautiful

I went to a friend's place today. It was fun. I love the easeness i have there. Its kinda like home.
I have never been 'unconfident' abt my looks. At times I have but it hasnt been very prolonged or so i remember. Its just that something abt me looking 'good' came up. I wonder how ppl measure that. I do admire good looks and all. Yeah first impression is important but i wonder if looking cute is all that matters. I dun think so. I have always believed that 'personality' makes u worthy but just for once i decide to be honest wid myself. Good looks matter, dunt they? I mean ppl give u all the crap abt 'whats really important in life' (or this cud strongly be my imagination) but i am sure thry wudnt hesitate looking at pretty little 'things'. Maybe it amuses people for a while.

Yeah or maybe i am taking it too seriously. Hm what is beauty exactly? Is it always a face turner? I wonder! Is it love for the 'object of affection'. WHat is pretty? something attractive to look it? I wonder again? If God made men and women why the discrimination> WHY is one pretty and the other one not?

I mean apart from all the jokes, what is important?

I have a recollection of this teacher of mine. SHe wasnt fair (extremely) or sexy or anything but she had elegance. SHe had organization. It seemed the very things around her are meant to compliment her elegance. Shes lovely. ANd sweet. Yeah I think beauty is that pull within a person. I truly believe that beauty lies in the eyes of the object. I mean the eyes say it all. But it doesnt really mean that ppl with red nerves in their eyes arent pretty. I think its wehn yr soul and body are at peace with themselves and dunt wish to acquire further development and harmony with themselves for the time being that u see beauty. I think its one's love for oneself and the Force that controls all.Its the belief in the miracle of life. I wont deny every aspect of breathtaking looks for i know i do fall for them myself! :) But yeah, beauty is what lasts. This isnt a make yrself feel better lesson. This is a get real lesson!

I dun think beauty will just ooze outa me but i do believe that my love for myself will show in the harmony that is of mind n soul.... and therein lies my beauty.

I am a bud. a closed flower. u'd have to be the breeze that enters in my pores and enlightens me. Otherwise, i doubt u'd find me 'beautiful'.
Boy i now love myself. ALHAMDULILAH